Hi darling, Just wanted to write a little down to you. I'm proud of myself for today. I had a nice reminder that some people do survive blood cancers. A few months ago that would have led to two things: 1. Me blubbing in a corner somewhere whilst some poor colleague had to console me 2. Some serious anger over life being so unfair But today neither of these things happened, it didn't get me upset and it didn't make me feel angry that someone got to survive when you didn't. I remember resenting these people before now. I feel this is a big step. I realised something else as well. The 21st of March came and went and I didn't do that depressing, 13months ago reliving all the pain business. I feel like maybe I'm getting to the point where I can focus on the good times and let go of all the bad. It doesn't mean that I miss you any less, I carry you with me all day everyday. Well that concludes my little waffle. Xxxx